Monday, 20 October 2014
I am living in a beautiful condo with one of my best friends. I had an incredibly full summer – I worked every day – but I thrive on being busy, and I really enjoyed myself. Having so many commitments made me really thankful for quite time with my fiancé, and made me really focus on eating well and exercise. I took up running in the summer, and I am still trying to practice, in order to run a half marathon in May. I haven’t ran a lot recently, simply because I struggle to motivate myself past the anxiety of it all, but I have been going to the gym regularly, and hopefully that will help me stay on top of my cardiovascular health.
It’s funny – I’m anxious about going out to run, and then I’m also anxious about being unprepared for the race. I know the easy thing to do is just “get over it,” but that’s still pretty hard for me. I’m working on it. I’m taking baby steps.
Overall, my life is good. I have concerns, I have fears, I have a lot of things I worry about, but most of them are about other people. I sometimes wish I could impose my thoughts and beliefs and values on other people – life would be so much easier! – but I’m starting to learn that’s not how life works. I hate that. I hate that people can make terrible choices and smoke and do drugs and have reckless sex, and I can’t do anything about it! I hate that people lie, cheat, and steal, even though I know those things are fundamentally wrong. I hate all of that, and I imagine I won’t “get over it” any time soon. Sometimes I am frustrated by the world. These past few weeks, I have been very frustrated by the amount of stupidity in the world, but I’m trying to look on the bright side.